Neon Future 1 Video 2

 I could have done the thing that needed to be done. It was the Christmas era in 2013. Yes, this be a decade ago near and it was a time. I had thought I had failed. Nothing had gone to plan. I had gotten no one suitable to help me in my endeavors for comics. Basically no one existed in this sycophant place. You might just call the place diverse trailer park college because that is how fucking ghetto it was. Go from a shitty highschool to an even shitter college with just tons of crazy people and I am to say that many people there be on the neon. They be on that cotton gem.  When you see that they allow a heroin seller to live on your floor and later in future years have tons of bad things happening in one building but don't do anything and then have tons of bad things happening in general and don't do anything-its just not a good place to learn. Allow a serial killer to attend school there. Had another in the past. Its just not good.  The people complain about the area surrounding being ghetto but never realize the fucking fact that the people who own houses pay taxes. Lol. So basically the highschool teaches you to accept nonsense and frankly I am to say you accept this asburd place as if normal? Not ever but really thing that you messed up so much that it impacts your works.

I am saying this false guilt ate away at me in some crucial time of creative development.  No, at a good deal of time after this dissappointment I was watching a Pokemon clip of the then new XY series. I was thinking how far Pokemon had come from 2000 and this was in 2013 and then I started to think. My room was lit not ever and it was dark and an idea came about but I knew I would not be able to work on it or so I thought. I was so close to what would be a game changer and I just let it slide. I choose to on that day to not aspire to create them all. Not to catch them all and just be mediocre but never again. 

I went to bed and it was like I just gave up for some reason and this was ten years ago. Believing I could not when I could. The things I messed up because I gave up is tremendous but then again maybe a person  was only thinking of what they could thought they could do but were wrong about what they actually could do. What if I had tried?

This is what would have happened if I tried and if I dared to go the distance. If I had not put it off then I would have surely just created what you see here. The thing about art is that you must never leave things to chance but to take all options avialable.